Saturday, August 2, 2014

Random Updates

1)  I'm down to one month of maternity leave, from 3 months. :(  I've enjoyed this maternity leave a lot more than the first time!  I think because I've had a lot of family around to help and Kevin's schedule has been better (for the most part, although the first three weeks in July were killer).  Plus Jack is an easier baby than Nora, so I haven't been so stressed.  And summer in Colorado is beautiful compared to Maryland! (though I hear the weather out there this year has been quite nice).

2) It's been fun to have more time to do stuff with Nora.  She is still going to full-time daycare twice a week, and half-day preschool "camp" two other days, and then home 3 days per week (my mom and sister have helped entertain her... and me!).  Nora will start full-time preschool at the end of August.  I think she's going to do great!  But I'll definitely miss our extra time together that we've had this summer.

Some things we have done this summer include...

Roly poly walks (Nora loves searching for these little guys):

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Visiting the new Discovery Center at the Natural History Museum, and participating in a Drum session:

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Going to the giant splash park and playground in Centennial with Nana:

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Taking swim class and going to the pool:

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Visiting the zoo several times, most recently with her Grandma and Grandpa and cousins, who were all in town:

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Going to the nearby sandbox park:

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"Frozen Camp", where all the little girls dressed up like Elsa or Anna and danced to "Let it Go":

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We also went to Cherry Creek reservoir with my mom, and enjoyed a picnic on the beach and swimming.  We've done other fun things too, I can't even think of them all. It's been a lot of fun.

3)  I have been pulled into work a little bit these last couple of weeks, as there are abstracts due for conferences this winter, and I wanted to submit something.  It's amazing how hard it is to switch back to "work brain" after being gone for a few weeks.  Not unwelcome, just hard.  I will have my work cut out for me when I go back- I left with two papers on hold, and I'll need to get into gear right away and get those done.  It will be a lot easier transition now that I won't have to pump during the work day.

4) Kevin is surviving his second year of residency so far.  He started with what we hope will be the most challenging rotation of the year, and now it's done.  He's had a more relaxing week this week and again next week, so that's been super nice.  He'll be in charge of more patients on his own this year so that part will be stressful. 

5) I've gotten to enjoy some good television this summer during all Jack's feedings- I finished Scandal, Orange is the New Black, and House of Cards (plus some Bachelorette thrown in there).  All three of those shows are excellent! (I won't try to pretend like Bachelorette is going to win any awards though, lol.  But I can't stop watching).


Thursday, July 24, 2014

Jack: Month Two

Dear Jack,

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This month, we started to get to know you a little better as you are slowly starting to wake up!  The last two months have truly been "the fourth trimester" for you as you largely just sleep and eat, with very little awake time.  We have done lots of snuggling, which has been fun. :)  Just in the last couple of weeks, you have had longer periods of alertness.  You are only 3 weeks old adjusted, and I think you definitely seem more like a 3-week old than a 2 month old.  We have seen glimpses of little smiles (and in the last couple of days, some in response to us smiling at you) but nothing consistent yet... I'm excited for this next month because I think we might start to be able to interact with you a little more!

The best news this month was that you took your nocturnal pulse ox test and passed!  No more oxygen tanks.  You had to stay above 87% respiration rate for at least 90% of the night.  You were close to 100% or at 100% most of the night so I was pretty sure you passed, but so happy when the doctor called to confirm it!  It has made so much easier for us and less annoying for you to not have that on your face.  Here are a couple of photos from when you still had it on:

Tummy time- that darn thing kept falling out of your nose But way to lift your head, little man!

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Your beautiful Nana snuggling with you:

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I don't think I'm destined to have a totally chill baby.  Though I have found you to be an easier baby than Nora at this age, for the most part, you still have fussy periods, particularly during the witching hours.  But at least I usually know what the problem is, or can make a good guess.  You're either (a) hungry, (b) have gas, or (c) are tired or want to be held.  Most of the time it's (b), so it's just a matter of working out a burp, which sometimes can take quite a bit of bouncing and patting.  During witching hours, it's usually (c).  I feel like Nora had a lot more "crying for no reason at all" spells.  For right now I'm happy that you're easy to interpret.

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Sleeping:  The pediatrician didn't want you to sleep longer than 5 hours at a time at night since you are still trying to catch up weight-wise.  But you've been regularly doing a 5 hour stretch at night, usually from around 10pm-3am or so.  Then we wake you up after another 3 hours (around 6am).  You sleep a lot during the day still as well. Usually you eat every 2.5-3 hours, stay awake for 10-40 minutes after eating, and then sleep the rest of the time.  I hope your good sleeping continues! You seem to be a much better daytime sleeper than Nora was at this age.  At night you sleep in the Rock n'Play, still next to our bed; daytime naps are usually in the bouncy seat, swing, or carrier.  Not worrying about sleep crutches yet!

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Eating: As mentioned in my previous update, we believe you have a milk protein allergy (because of bloody diarrhea... awesome).  That put a definitive end to pumping... it took me about a week to wean from the pump.  I was sad that breastfeeding just didn't work out this time- I had hoped it would go better than last time, not worse- but after I put aside that loss, I've been pretty happy with formula feeding and it's nice not to be tied to the pump anymore.  I seriously gained a ton of time back into by day, plus I'm getting more sleep at night (about 6-7 hours instead of 4-5 total).  You seem to be feeling good and growing great on the formula (Alimentum) and eating about 3 oz every 2.5-3 hours during the day.  Right now I mix 3 scoops of formula per 5 oz of water to up the calorie amount.  Really the only downside is the expense- it's about $25/container when bought in bulk on Amazon, and you go through a container in about 4-5 days! (actually there are two downsides- this formula is smelly and your poops stink to high heaven).

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One other thing I will mention is that you spit up A LOT.  Much more than I remember with Nora.  We have you on reflux meds because like a month ago you would spit up breastmilk and it was clearly burning your throat with stomach acid.  The meds definitely seem to help and now the spit-up doesn't seem to bother you as much (but still makes for messy clothes for both you and me or whoever happens to be holding you at the time).  I will be happy when you outgrow the spit-up phase!

Also, you are fighting some anemia. We have you a ferrous sulfate drops but your iron levels keep fluctuating every couple of weeks.  Hoping it normalizes here pretty soon.

Weight: 9lbs 4oz at your 2 month appointment today.  Doubled your birth weight!  You actually weigh more than your sister did at 2 months... way to grow, buddy!

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Diaper Size:  Most of the month you wore newborn (I maybe bought one too many boxes of these), but you have officially outgrown those and fit well in size 1s (very similar to your sister at month 2!).

Clothes Size: Just growing out of most newborn clothes, and wearing 0-3 months (but some of these still seem very large on you).

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Eye Color: A beautiful blue.  Slightly lighter than last month.

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Milestones/Firsts:  You've been doing little sleepy smiles for awhile, but just in the last week have we had a couple smiles that I would consider a response to us talking to you.  Hope they become more frequent soon!  You have been grabbing for toys on the playmat too.

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Likes/Dislikes:  You seem to like the bath okay.  Your big dislike seems to be long rides in the carseat... just like your sister, you are okay if the car is moving, but at any red stoplights, you start to fuss.  Once you fall asleep in the carseat, it's fine.  You do not like having your diaper changed right now- maybe it's the sudden cold air.  Also not a fan of getting dressed, but what baby is?  You do generally like being "worn"- I've been using the Boba wrap a lot, and more recently the Ergo, which I'm liking better this time around (Nora never liked being worn).  You fuss a little at first but then snuggle in and fall asleep.  You also like being tummy to tummy and falling asleep on my chest.

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Sibling Love: This month Nora seems like she is starting to get a little more used to having you around, but there are definitely still occasional jealous moments.  She does like to give you her toys and try to put your pacifier in when you are crying. I posted this on Facebook but it's too funny not to post here too:

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You have fit into our family seamlessly, little Jack.  I'm already over halfway through my maternity leave, so I'm trying to soak up every moment with you.  I love all your newborn "Blue Steel" faces, sleepy smiles, baby rolls that are just starting to form, happy sighs, and just that baby innocence that seems to trust that we will take care of you no matter what.  We love you, little man!

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Thursday, July 17, 2014

The Wonder of Three

I was warned about three.  A lot of people say it's worse than two.  And certainly, Nora has had some truly frustrating moments in the past few months.  At least once a day she tells me "I'm mad at you!", or "Don't talk to me!"  She has mastered the skill of procrastination when there's a task I ask her to do that she doesn't want to do, and she will throw impressive fits if things are not going her way.

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BUT, it is also a fun, amazing age.  She has developed her imagination, and the things she comes up with are adorable and funny.  It is also the age of independence.  She loves being able to do things herself.  If she tries and can't do it as well as she was hoping, she will literally scream in frustration.  Lately she's been really into getting dressed totally by herself.  For a few mornings in a row I've come into her room and she's gotten out of her pajamas and picked out a whole outfit and gotten dressed herself.  I've also come in to find her wearing not one, but two sets of pajamas, one on top of the other.  "Look Mommy", she says, "I put BOTH of my pajamas on!".

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She is really into bugs right now.  She's partly afraid of bugs but mostly just intensely curious.  She can talk you ear off about ants and spiders and bees and which bugs are friendly and which ones are not.  Which ones might bite and why. She loves to look for roly-polys on our walks.  When she finds one she picks it up and says, "Look, he likes me!" (She's become quite adept at her scooter, too.  But of course the princess dress is a must, even on the scooter).  She'll stop along the way and hug each tree. "I love this tree SO much", she'll say.

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She has so much excitement for every activity, it's infectious.  We did sparklers and little fireworks this year on the Fourth of July, and she was grinning from ear to ear, wiggling and squealing "I'm so excited!!"  We've done a lot of fun activities this summer- the Children's Museum (where she got to make a big bubble room with daddy), family parties, swim classes, the splash park, evening walks and visits to the town center fountains.  All of these things are so fun because of a little girl with a huge smile on her face.

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Her imagination really has taken off, and she'll spend many hours of the day inventing stories, or re-enacting various movies.  Lately she's been very into Cinderella, and one afternoon her and I literally re-enacted the entire movie, with her as Cinderella (of course), and me as every other character (evil stepmother and step-sisters, fairy godmother, and prince).  She knows most of the lines from the movie, and would act out having the clean the floor, getting her dress ripped from the evil step-sisters, having the fairy godmother come, and finally, dancing with the prince, losing the magical slipper, and having it fit her foot just perfectly.

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Watching her at bathtime is similar, but she'll have long re-enacted stories about her toy mermaids, sometimes stuff she makes up, sometimes things from The Little Mermaid.  It's fascinating to watch.  She also loves to pretend she is a cat.  That can actually be somewhat aggravating, as she will only talk in "cat", i.e., meows, while she's in character.  When Kevin is home, she loves nothing more than to either play "monster" (one of us is the monster and chases the other two), or "horsie" (Kevin is the horse.  Sometimes she rides his back but more often she just likes to lead him around and tell him where to sleep, LOL).

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She is generally a good big sister and loves to "share" her toys with Jack- usually lying them on top of him.  I'm sure she won't be quite as generous when he actually starts to show interest in her things. :)  She likes to help out with him, and she tells me how she was a little baby once too but now she's a big girl.  It feels like a blink of an eye to me but to her, it was an eon ago.

At night we still say what we're thankful for.  Nora's list is usually something like, "Boats and rocketships, Ariel, Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella, a roof so that the rain and snow and hail doesn't come in, shoes and pajamas, Mommy and Daddy and baby Jack... and um... stars!"

There are tough moments with her every day, but she is the joy of my life. She sometimes makes me want to pull my hair out, but when she gives me a kiss on the lips and says, "I'm your friend and you are my friend, right Mommy?" or "I love you SO much", I can't think of anything sweeter in the world.

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Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Why Maternity Leave is Hard & Wonderful at the same time

I haven't been posting a ton on here, but we are alive and well!  Lol.  I've now been on maternity leave for 4 weeks, plus the 2 weeks before that when Jack was in the hospital.  It's been a busy busy 6 weeks.  It helps that this time I was more prepared for the mind-numbing busy-ness that comes with newborns- it was a really hard adjustment with Nora, but this time I'm finding it easier to find enjoyable moments amongst the chaos.

You wouldn't think it would be so busy, but with pumping (or breastfeeding last time), bottle-feeding and cleaning, rocking and playing, pacifying the toddler, etc I end up with very little free time during the day and very little sleep at night.  And this is even with Nora at daycare most days, which helps a ton (she's been going to full-day daycare twice per week, part-time preschool "camp" two days per week, and staying home one day per week).  Plus my mom and sometimes sister have been able to help out a lot too, picking Nora up from school and taking her out to do some activities (Kevin also helped a ton for the first few weeks but now he's back to another crazy rotation and I don't see him much).  For all their help, I'm truly grateful.  Plus many others have brought us food or helped entertain Nora, or sent us thoughtful notes (thank you!!!).

It's been exhausting, as most nights I got 4-5 hours of sleep- but not continuous.  Usually I get like a couple 1.5 hours stretches and another 1 hour stretch.  A couple of night ago I think I got 6 hours total and it felt amazing- one 2.5 hour stretch, a 2 hour stretch, and a 1 hour stretch.  Jack is actually a decent night sleeper (heck, he's a decent day sleeper, kid sleeps all.the.time), but we only just got approval from the pediatrician to let him sleep as long as 5 hours; for a long time it was every 3 hours around the clock we had to wake him to eat.  Usually he sleeps closer to 4 at a time at night before he gets hungry.  But in addition I was pumping every 3 hours around the clock, and the combination of pumping and feeding took me about 1.5 hours... every 3 hours.  So that leaves not a lot of time for sleep.  When Kevin was on vacation for a week, he helped with some of the night feedings, but I still had to wake to pump.  Ugh.

The good news, things are looking up.  Jack is getting bigger and can sleep longer, and I've nearly weaned from the pump entirely (the final nail in the breastfeeding/pumping coffin?  Jack was diagnosed with a milk protein allergy over the last weekend- associated with bloody mucousy poop.  Yay.  Even if breastfeeding had been going great I'm not sure I have the willpower to totally give up all dairy/soy products.  He's now on hypoallergenic formula and seems much happier.  I'm sad that his early arrival led to this path of not breastfeeding.  From talking to other NICU moms, it seems like this is pretty common.  But I've come to accept it, and acknowledge that there are certainly good things about having to use formula- it's just easier in some cases).

Anyway, those are the downsides, but honestly Jack is a sweet little baby and I'm loving being at home this summer.  I know I won't get maternity leave again, and having this summer to dote on my babies is really special.  Really the time is flying by, as it always does- in a couple of weeks, I'll already be halfway through maternity leave. :(  I think I'll be ready to go back to work but there are definitely things I will miss about being home with these kiddos.

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Thursday, July 3, 2014

Pregnancy Evolution #2

Here is how my bump evolved with Nora.

And here it is with Jack... didn't get to find out what it looked like at 39 weeks, but in some ways I'm glad the bump was so big even at 34 weeks... still got to experience feeling like a nice round pregnant lady. :)

I think it's especially interesting to compare when I'm wearing the same shirt, like weeks 22 and 31, or weeks 27 and 34, or weeks 18 and 29.   So cool!  I'm glad I documented it almost every week... it's fun to see the changes.

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Monday, June 30, 2014

Two Yawns

I just realized I have pictures of both of my babies at one month old, yawning in the same chair.  There are definitely some similarities! (and some differences, like the nose is different I think).  Too funny. :)

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Friday, June 27, 2014

Siblings

I was worried about how Nora would handle having a baby in the house, but so far, she's doing really well!  She really likes to hold his hand, and she asks to hold him or kiss him, which is really cute.  I think the hardest part for her right now might be all the time pumping takes me- she has a hard time not climbing all over me, or asking me to do things I can't while attached to the pump.  So we've been watching a lot more movies than normal, which distracts her long enough so I can bottle feed Jack and then pump (if Kevin is home then he will play with her). I think things will get harder when Jack can play with her toys and she'll have to share.  It will also be harder when Kevin is on his difficult rotations, as I can't provide her as much attention when it's just me.

I thought this series of photos was so cute... this was one of the first times Nora really got to hold Jack.  You can see she looks a little worried at first.  Then I told her to kiss him; she can be really gentle and sweet with him!  And I love the last picture... my two little loves.

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